2003-10-25 - 11:25 p.m.
sleeping beauty
i hate highschool.
i figure that sums up about everything you need to know. except for that we won our homecoming football game. i walked around with my friends freezing my ars off. (and no i did not miss spell ass its how they say it in scotland or something.) i saw a lot of people's rents that i used to know. i took pictures of the game. it was all very highschool-ish i believe. then at the end when me and jessi went to look for her rents by the french frie stand, which we always do, i saw mrs. weakly whos still very nice to me and david with katie from my volleyball team. and then clayton came over and just started talking to me. "hey hows it going" and then - i dont know how we got on the subject ( i think i smiled or something) but he started talking about braces. then he asked about chorus, which we're not in anymore, but we remembered when mr.deihl went over on him for quitting. and then jessi's rents came and i left. "see ya latter."
maybe with some people its just best to pick up where you left off.
why do we do these things we do to ourselves? why do i do this? i blocked it all out. but i had to let it come back.
i think i want to live in oregon. and ill watch the leaves turn red and orange from a lone cabin on a moutin. i can paint the scene, but for now i can only see it in my head. i want to be on my own. i think it would be good for me. maybe someday...
im never ever going back again. i am so so happy for jessi. i feel like i need to over flow. i want to talk to someone. but someone who wont answer back and will just listen and not try to make me seem like im doing something wrong. i cant always look on the brigh side. but the glass is half full right now cause of jessi.
i was just hoping it would be better.
even though i knew it wouldnt.
i was thinking maybe it would be something worth while for once.
why do i do these things i do to myself?
my mom didnt even remember to tape me sleeping beauty.
