2003-12-17 - 5:31 p.m.
im dying inside my skin
today was hell. my mom never wakes me up early enough so screw taking a shower. then i had a science test that i was prepared for and was easy and under 100 questions. then in fifth pd german everything went downhill. i dont know why. maybe the cold in the room or the fact that my speech sucked but still got full points or that german has sucked will suck and sucks currently. and russel kept coming up behind me and shaking my head violently. and i have to write a lab report this weekend, go to christmas with my aunts and uncles and psycoanylitical grandma and burn cds at liz's. (side note - i just threw a punch at my brother. it looked like it hurt. dont fuck with me). and now since miss long is a bitch which is the worst thing i could think of to call her royal bitchyness. she gave us another fucking report along with a test to study for and 400 pages of reading. when the hell am i going to get a christmas vacation? i have to do gifted shit and hon. english. and ontop of everything else my skin hates me my period is coming and i dont have a boyfriend. and the future doesnt look too good. i feel bad saying that when kids are starving out there and i should be recycling something. or at least going to math help ( i forgot my book - not on purpose i swear although my mom said it was soo conveneint.). god why does life suck so bad? why is highschool such hell? wheres god to help us all? at christmas time? HELLO IM DYING HERE! although you should probably help the homeless and dying albanians first...
highschool is like acid. only wihtout the acid. i witnessed a fight on my bus today two guys trowing punches about something gay. literally. we almost had the state police thank god we didnt i was almost crying because i wanted to go home so bad and away from all those bastards.
i cried myself to sleep and slept from 3:30 till 5:15.
