2003-12-23 - 3:32 p.m.
go back 3 or 4 years pre-highschool...
i hate school so much. i hate how the teachers aren't ever sympathetic. i hate how people are so rude to each other. i hate how no one cares about important things. im jealous of everyone who gets to hold hands with someone in the hallways. i hate our leaking roofs and the godforesaken court yards.
i woke up the other night thinking about elementry school. and how badly i miss it. sixth grade was the best. everything about it was so wonderful. i miss mrs mellott who always had cool projects to make or a new idea about how to make math exciting. i remember making palm trees out of oat meal cans and making name tags for our desks. i miss recess and seeing who could get their back hip circle first on the bars and playing first base in kickball. i remember being part of a team with all the jocks to verse the teachers in volleyball. i remember feild days and always being a part of the four by four team with sarah because we were fast distance runners , even though i can't sprint for crap. in 6th grade sarah ran first, i was second, then clayton and then alex. i think. and we won and it was wonderful. so so wonderful. i even miss the small hallways that i felt trapped in and couldn't wait to get out of. now they seem safe, and protective. i miss my old friends like amie and clayton and sarah. but amie got a boyfriend, clayton got cuter, and sarah moved away. and i never talk to them anymore.
i dont think i can make it through another 3 and a half years of highschool feeling like i can't belong. jr. high sucked and highschool isnt looking much better.
i just wish sometimes that something would happen and make everything good again, the way it used to be...
