2004-02-12 - 7:40 p.m.
im running out of clock that bitter shock.
i am so fucking pissed off.
bush came. what a jackass. it was all hipocricy and lies. and im sorry that im not more appreciative. its just that when your principal and teachers say how wonderful you are and how much they love teaching us you just want to scream. what the hell. no one loves teaching us. as for no child left behind.
yea sure.
so they want to test us on the same level. that in itself is assinine because thats heading slowly towards the scary type of communism that you read about in books. the type where they make everyone be the same. you can't test everyone on the same level. that brings the gifted kids down and the slow ones are pushed too much. not to mention "be an individual". bullshit. tell us that and then warp us to be the same.
im pissed that nita's mad because her host family is evil and wont let her use the phone.
i thought i was going to a then theres me show this weekend. but liz bailed because terry told her theres drugs and moshing there. well i just heard from cheryl that that was at halloween and things were different in november. those are the kids i want to know. the punk rock band art kids who are cool by my standards. i need a group to be totally and completely happy inside and i don't know if its them but i need something or someone because im dying in highschool here.
my mom is trying to make me decide what i want to do this summer - now. i have no fucking idea. i have no idea if i want to work at hershey park or be a cit or go to camp or what. i need to get away but i want to be with my friends.
i just want to be fucking happy.
there was never any place for someone like me to be totally happy.
i need somewhere.
"so come on in we're all inside of nothing."-the early novembers.
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liz told me to get my ass in gere and write something.
i havent written anything good in months. since highschool - the poem.
highschool is taking its toll on me. its wearing me down.
im starting to feel
lucid
like im one step away from falling off the edge of sanity.
damn damn damn. i cant write anything.
president bush came to our school today and talked to the student body, plus media and involved parents that decided to show up. the whole ordeal was completed by piketers, a motorcade, the secret service, snipers, and those dogs that sniff you for cocain. there was live coverage of our school for the better part of the day because obviously there was nothing better to report about.
some who decided the insanity wasn't worth going to school for. i was one of them, however my parents decided that i couldn't miss such an honorably moment in out schools history. true, this was a big deal. the president was coming to our school. and if youve never been theres, its not much seeing that plaster falls from the ceiling and roofs leak. but he was coming. so our janiters worked there butts off, scrubbing the graffeti off the lockers and shining the floors. they even put in 150 phone lines since we only had 6. the teachers were siked and the students were, well anxious for a chance to skip out on class.
about half an our pre-bush landing we were horeded into either the cafeteria, auditorium, or those lucky enough to get a glimps of the most powerful man alive were paked into the gymnasium.
i have no idea what the gym was like since i was seated in the auditorium. our principal and super intendent came onto stage and we booed them both. however bush got a big round of aplause from the highschoolers. after that though, all he said was a lost cause. half of everone fell sleep and those who didn't played hangman and did tommorrows vocab assignment.
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so yea as you can tell that was an article since i didn't call bush names or use any swear words.
im going to listen to leaning by the starting line. "2/12/99"
